it’s pretty mixed up as much as i am messed up. i never cried you see, though i desperately wanted too so i can flushed you out of my system. then again, the mind and the body are telling me that you’re not worth the waterworks. being that i am one of the foolish girls anyway, i still felt like being stabbedstabbedstabbed each time there’s something whatever out there reminds me of you and i tried sooo hard to cry. but the tears never came. even my tears are disgusted at the thought of you.