don’t worry. this is private.

raise the bar

because he knows that you’ll be there. despite everything else. you will be there.

is it worth to mourn?
is it worth to be happy only when he’s around?

who is he…
that could affect you so much?

the scribbles sequel

you know that each time when you wake up
you will hit the same wall again

when sleeping could not helped you escape
even for awhile

when crying is not
soothing enough

is this right…
when the two most supportive people you know
is telling you that you are wrong?

when all these pretty clothes
is not enough to sate you

all them trinkets you bought
is not festive enough around your curves

you only wanted to dress in dresses
can’t wait for the new cloths
to be tailored to your fitting

let him go


when we first met, i never felt something so strong
you were like my lover and my best friend
all wrapped into one with a ribbon on it
and all of a sudden you went and left
i didn’t know how to follow
it’s like a shock that spun me around
and now my heart’s dead
i feel so empty and hollow

damn, ain’t it crazy when you’re loveswept
you’d do anything for the one you love
cause anytime that you needed me, i’d be there
it’s like you were my favorite drug
the only problem was that you was using me
in a different way than i was using you
but now that i know that it’s not meant to be
you gotta go, i gotta wean myself off of you

and i’ll never give myself to another the way i gave it to ya
don’t even recognize the ways you hurt me, do ya?
it’s gonna take a miracle to bring me back
and you are the one to blame
and now i feel like —

you’re the reason why I’m thinking
i don’t wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
i guess that’s what i get for wishful thinking
should’ve never let you enter my door
next time you wanna go on and leave
i should just let you go on and do it
’cause now i’m using like i bleed