viva M

this is just a reminder to moi …

remember that rush of … i don’t know… gratification, i guess… when you asked to convince yourself that he gets the whole picture why you freaked out about the meeting after you detailed him the recent past… 

just never knew i could do it on these people i thought i’d never won over.

the truth just shines…


this is serious… i can’t pull and push myself forward… i get too scared, too stiffed… too scarred… sure, this could be what-goes-around-comes-around but you have got nothing to do with me anymore… lemahnya… sangat tak terdaya at times… can’t answer questions properly… i’d plunge back inside the hole once somebody is able to picked me out… until the next person walked up to me and pulls me out again… and the cycle repeats…

exhausted… this up and down and up again and down again rollercoaster is really really sucks …


Calm down
Deep breaths
Get yourself dressed
Instead of running around
And pulling on myour threads
And breaking myourself up
If it’s a broken part, replace it
If it’s a broken arm, then brace it
If it’s a broken heart, then face it
Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I’m doing everything
Are the details in the fabric?
Are there things that makes me you panic?
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are there things that makes me you blow
Oh, no reason, go on and scream
If i’m you’re shocked it’s just the fault of faulty manufacturing
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Everything, in no time at all
And on and on…